Results day tomorrow! Though screaming inside, I take comfort that this isn't apparent in my outer countenance. The dithering about, agitated hand-running-through-hair, and abrupt, tense speech aren't giving me away at all...the fact I was up and showered before the crack of dawn, however, may have aroused suspicion from family members as a tell-tale anxiety sign. In fact, I’m more worried now that the nervous energy currently radiating from me will spark some sort of electrical explosion. My mind is so focused on the consequences of this pent-up static charge that tomorrow’s impending results barely feature in the assortment of thoughts flitting ceaselessly through my brain. That’s the brain that I hope regurgitated sufficient information in exams all those weeks ago.
But I’m ok. She says, gasping for breath. Prone though I am to intermittent spasms of realization that this time tomorrow I WILL KNOW, I am (dimly) aware that what THEY (‘they’ being the considerate public) say is true. I know that even if I fail (the very word blaring with vulgar brightness at me) to get into my first-choice university, it’s not ‘the end of the world’. Therefore, while quashing my doubts that I have accidentally tempted fate and in so doing, have prophesized the world’s end, I remind myself it will be FINE. My erratic capitalization assures me that I’m no longer fooling you, either, so I’ll attempt to tame my flustering attitude, and avoid the countless articles luring me over only to enrage me with assertions that “A-levels are getting easier”, “UNIVERSITIES ARE TOO FULL”, and similar reassurances.
I can’t help feeling that an assortment of letters shouldn’t have this torturous effect. And you understand, I say this while edging away from any electrically unstable items. Because there’s nothing to worry about – ‘everyone’ll get A’s anyway’.
Wednesday, 18 August 2010
Tuesday, 3 August 2010
Explaining my previous post...
GET READY FOR THIS. There is going to be hellish english-student-esque attitude in the following paragraph. I can only apologise.
I know this is an incredibly novel thing to do. A nagging voice in my brain is whispering "copyright it copyright it", but I shall sweep that aside in light of the urgency of the situation. I'm going to 'explain' my last post because I fear it is a trifle too confusing even for the most scattered of brains to assemble.
Basically, the confusing format in itself was (I'm guessing) supposed to be a reflection of how confusing, contradictory, and frustratingly inconsistent I found the religious 'material' to be. To add to this, there are occasional references to modernday (phones, television, meerkats, girls speaking aloud/allowed etc.) - this was to emphasise the (apparent) inability to apply the already inconsistent ideas to an updated reality - it was not, as may be assumed, because I have *misunderstood* the timelessness of the ideas involved. I can think of a latin quote to justify this idea of changing times but I am well aware I have far outstripped the not-being-beaten-up-by-the-class-bully level of geekishness so I will keep that little gem of knowledge to myself. (Hehe...I could be lying and none of you would know! Really, there is nothing to brag about. Get on with it.)
And yes, before you ask, this is all a rather shoddy justification attempting to excuse what is an extremely odd expression of confusion. Because it is really very convenient for me to explain that I wrote tenously-linked ideas and bemusingly meaningless dialogue because that's exactly the impression I wanted to create. Damn. Reminded of a Sherlock Holmes quote about twisting facts to suit theories rather than theories to suit facts, but the scale of my geekishness is reaching an alarmingly perilious height as it is. Guess I managed to get away with it there without actually having to put in quotation marks (teehee).
Anyway. If I haven't explained this all to a sufficient extent (if? what do you mean, "if"??) this pictorial accompaniment will no doubt render both these blogs entirely superfluous: http://miscellanea.wellingtongrey.net/2007/01/15/science-vs-faith/
Read on as you will. Interpret the confusion as you think best...IF YOU DARE.
I'm sorry. But I was aware I had managed to alienate even the most curious from reading the blog below, so I figured one more fear-driven incentive against wouldn't hurt.
Please, do read, and freely too. There's nothing (much) to fear. :)
I know this is an incredibly novel thing to do. A nagging voice in my brain is whispering "copyright it copyright it", but I shall sweep that aside in light of the urgency of the situation. I'm going to 'explain' my last post because I fear it is a trifle too confusing even for the most scattered of brains to assemble.
Basically, the confusing format in itself was (I'm guessing) supposed to be a reflection of how confusing, contradictory, and frustratingly inconsistent I found the religious 'material' to be. To add to this, there are occasional references to modernday (phones, television, meerkats, girls speaking aloud/allowed etc.) - this was to emphasise the (apparent) inability to apply the already inconsistent ideas to an updated reality - it was not, as may be assumed, because I have *misunderstood* the timelessness of the ideas involved. I can think of a latin quote to justify this idea of changing times but I am well aware I have far outstripped the not-being-beaten-up-by-the-class-bully level of geekishness so I will keep that little gem of knowledge to myself. (Hehe...I could be lying and none of you would know! Really, there is nothing to brag about. Get on with it.)
And yes, before you ask, this is all a rather shoddy justification attempting to excuse what is an extremely odd expression of confusion. Because it is really very convenient for me to explain that I wrote tenously-linked ideas and bemusingly meaningless dialogue because that's exactly the impression I wanted to create. Damn. Reminded of a Sherlock Holmes quote about twisting facts to suit theories rather than theories to suit facts, but the scale of my geekishness is reaching an alarmingly perilious height as it is. Guess I managed to get away with it there without actually having to put in quotation marks (teehee).
Anyway. If I haven't explained this all to a sufficient extent (if? what do you mean, "if"??) this pictorial accompaniment will no doubt render both these blogs entirely superfluous: http://miscellanea.wellingtongrey.net/2007/01/15/science-vs-faith/
Read on as you will. Interpret the confusion as you think best...IF YOU DARE.
I'm sorry. But I was aware I had managed to alienate even the most curious from reading the blog below, so I figured one more fear-driven incentive against wouldn't hurt.
Please, do read, and freely too. There's nothing (much) to fear. :)
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